SOMETHING FELT DIFFERENT

Yesterday I woke up and something felt different.  Some little glimmer of motivation was there that hasn't been there for quite a while. I felt like I wanted to try.  I felt like it was possible to have the healthy body and lifestyle that I truly want.

So....I decided to go with it.

Rather than have Cinnamon Toast Crunch for breakfast, I opted for a Weight Loss shake and a banana.  I walked on the treadmill for 35 minutes.  I tracked all my food for the day.  I engaged in fun, active activities with my kids - JUST DANCE 4 - KILLER WORK OUT!  You BET I logged JD4 time as part of my workout!!!

Was it a perfect day, no.  It wasn't.  I don't expect I will have too many of those.  BUT, it was a good day. AND for the first time in a very long time I felt good.  I felt like I accomplished something.  I felt like I might actually get there.  I saw myself on a cruise -  lean and healthy and able to participate in a whole different way.  I saw myself running on the treadmill and really pushing my body.  It was weird.  These thoughts were just popping into my head, and I knew I could do it.

As always, I know there will be a day that this glimmer, this hope and motivation, will fade and I will NOT feel like pushing forward.  I still have to figure out what to do when that moment hits - because it has definitely derailed me many, many, many times.  BUT, I am not going to let that get me down - I refuse to focus on past failures right now.  Today I am going to let the glimmer take over and push me forward - and I am going to celebrate what is going right!  And here is a list of what really IS going right...

• In January, I gave up Coke and all soda - again.  It was hard, and I once again realized that soda is my Kryptonite.  I CANNOT drink soda.  It does me in...and Coke, well forget about it.  I am an addict and once I start drinking that stuff all my bad habits creep back in.   I have to face the fact that for me there will be no moderation where drinking soda and especially Coke  is concerned.  I just have to bid it farewell - FOREVER. I am 3 weeks into forever!! 
• January 27, 2013 - I tracked what I ate.  I worked out - 50 minutes!! (yes, that includes my crazy Just Dance 4).  I made a delicious dinner that I was proud of (Quick Paella - damn, those shrimp were so good - and I don't even like shrimp).  
• My house is mostly clean.  My family is pulling together to keep it that way. I feel so happy when I walk in I don't even know what to do with myself!
• We are having more and more family activity time...and I love it.  There is such a noticeable difference in how we behave and act with each other when we just take the time to play and have fun with each other.

I am focusing on the positive, and trying my best to banish the negative. 

It feels good.