Today I feel like I need to address something that has really been bugging me.
I recently read a post on a fellow bloggers weight loss blog, that I feel fairly certain was in reference to me and my journey (and even if it isn't - it might have well been): The fact that I constantly fall of the wagon. The fact that I gain steam, and then fail.
She wrote in her blog that she wanted to say "WTF - stop acting like an undisciplined child" - but she just couldn't "bring herself to" and instead just chose to stop following my blog. Because, well - she didn't like the negativity. It was "bad energy for her" .
NEGATIVITY! BAD ENERGY! - HONEY, THIS IS REALITY! This is the reality that millions of people around the world face every single day. This is the struggle. This is the crushing, overwhelming journey - SORRY IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT.
Here's the thing, if you are looking for a blog that paints weight loss - or more than that - food addiction and fighting obesity - in a positive, Mary Sunshine light - YOU HAVE COME TO THE WRONG BLOG. Feel free to stop following now. Please - stop following - I don't need you reading this blog. I can't inspire you - not even a little. You want to read about people who already fought the good fight, not about someone wanting, desperately, to fight it!
This blog is about the REAL LIFE battle that an obese person, ME, CONNIE - A REAL EFFING PERSON, faces when trying to deal with this problem. Much like a drug addict or an alcoholic trying to get clean, this is a bloody, gruesome war! And one that like MILLIONS of others out there are fighting, and failing - one that I am failing at right now.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, I AM NOT AFRAID TO SAY THAT I'M FAILING - I'M NOT AFRAID TO POST THE STRUGGLE. AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE THAT - GET OFF MY BLOG.
Seriously - why do you think that in America obesity and overweight in adults is an epidemic?? Because its easy to beat?? Because we never fall down??
NO. IT'S BECAUSE THIS IS EFFING HARD!
And many, MANY strong people will fail. I might even be one of them - but at least I'm willing to say that, and put myself out there - and document said failures in hopes that MAYBE, JUST MAYBE someone else can relate, and feel that they are normal when they fall - that they can understand - and provide support - and not just when it's convenient and positive!!!
Look, I hope I don't fail at this, but who knows! The odds are certainly against me and EVERY OTHER FAT PERSON IN AMERICA WHO WANTS TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
So, look, if you want to read a blog about someone who ALREADY made it to the end of their journey, then see your way off this blog. BUT, if you want to read about someone who is fighting to try to get there, even though there will be failures - and a lot of them - if you want to lend your support, hear it like it is, truly understand the battle that an obese person goes through to try to beat their ADDICTION - then, this is the blog for you.
To the fair weather supporter who abandoned me - good riddance. I don't need your brand of support.
To those of you who are hanging in there with me, even though you wonder how many more times you are going to read about me falling down, eating McDonald's or just plain giving up - THANK YOU! It means more to me than I can say - I hope I don't disappoint you forever - I don't think I will! Regardless, your support is important to me and I appreciate it - it makes a difference, it really does!
OH, and by the way, to my faithful supporters - I give you full permission to say:
CONNIE, WHAT THE HELL!
A little tough love never hurt a soul!