Monday, January 28, 2013


Yesterday I woke up and something felt different.  Some little glimmer of motivation was there that hasn't been there for quite a while. I felt like I wanted to try.  I felt like it was possible to have the healthy body and lifestyle that I truly want.

So....I decided to go with it.

Rather than have Cinnamon Toast Crunch for breakfast, I opted for a Weight Loss shake and a banana.  I walked on the treadmill for 35 minutes.  I tracked all my food for the day.  I engaged in fun, active activities with my kids - JUST DANCE 4 - KILLER WORK OUT!  You BET I logged JD4 time as part of my workout!!!

Was it a perfect day, no.  It wasn't.  I don't expect I will have too many of those.  BUT, it was a good day. AND for the first time in a very long time I felt good.  I felt like I accomplished something.  I felt like I might actually get there.  I saw myself on a cruise -  lean and healthy and able to participate in a whole different way.  I saw myself running on the treadmill and really pushing my body.  It was weird.  These thoughts were just popping into my head, and I knew I could do it.

As always, I know there will be a day that this glimmer, this hope and motivation, will fade and I will NOT feel like pushing forward.  I still have to figure out what to do when that moment hits - because it has definitely derailed me many, many, many times.  BUT, I am not going to let that get me down - I refuse to focus on past failures right now.  Today I am going to let the glimmer take over and push me forward - and I am going to celebrate what is going right!  And here is a list of what really IS going right...

  • In January, I gave up Coke and all soda - again.  It was hard, and I once again realized that soda is my Kryptonite.  I CANNOT drink soda.  It does me in...and Coke, well forget about it.  I am an addict and once I start drinking that stuff all my bad habits creep back in.   I have to face the fact that for me there will be no moderation where drinking soda and especially Coke  is concerned.  I just have to bid it farewell - FOREVER. I am 3 weeks into forever!! 
  • January 27, 2013 - I tracked what I ate.  I worked out - 50 minutes!! (yes, that includes my crazy Just Dance 4).  I made a delicious dinner that I was proud of (Quick Paella - damn, those shrimp were so good - and I don't even like shrimp).  
  • My house is mostly clean.  My family is pulling together to keep it that way. I feel so happy when I walk in I don't even know what to do with myself!
  • We are having more and more family activity time...and I love it.  There is such a noticeable difference in how we behave and act with each other when we just take the time to play and have fun with each other.
I am focusing on the positive, and trying my best to banish the negative. 

It feels good.


  1. What a great post! I can feel your emotion in it. Good for you for going with it. I love days I wake up like that. I'm proud of you. You will get to the place on the cruise because everyday adds up!!

  2. I really believe that it is hard to do anything if you really can't envision it. And you can! Use that vision to keep your diet clean, and these visions can come true.

    :-) Marion