Yes. I have fallen off the wagon...fallen off and am being dragged along the dirt, rock strewn road.
No. I haven't posted for this VERY reason.
When a person recording their weight loss journey via blog suddenly stops posting, it is a bad sign. A very bad sign!
I have no idea what happened! One day I was jumping for joy and so ecstatic that I was moments away from cracking the 400 lbs. mark, the next day I was up to my eyeballs in fatty, high calorie food....and the fatty, high calorie food has continued for about a week and a half.
My last weigh in, well, it wasn't good. 407 lbs. That was last Friday, and seriously, that number cannot have done anything but gotten worse.
How, HOW, does someone go from being GUNG HO, MOTIVATED and FOCUSED to LAZY, TIRED OF IT ALL and WILLING TO THROW AWAY 2 MONTHS OF HARD WORK!
I don't have an answer for that, beyond just saying...this is the battle - THE BATTLE AGAINST OBESITY - and why winning this battle is HARD and why SO MANY never reign victorious (boy, that sounds pompous!)
BUT, I am not giving up. I don't care if I fall off the wagon a million more times, my commitment is this....
I WILL CLAW MY WAY BACK ONTO SAID WAGON - EVERY SINGLE TIME I FALL OFF.
THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN I HOLD ON SO TIGHT TO THAT RAMPAGING, BUMPING, RUNAWAY WAGON - LIKE LITERALLY BIND MYSELF TO IT - THAT I NEVER FALL OFF AGAIN!
Rather than make a million excuses WHY I am off the wagon - excuses you have all heard before - excuses I have made so, so, SO many times, I am just going to recommit myself to this journey...because I know it is the right thing to do AND I know that I deserve to see it through to the end.
I am recommitting myself to my 'Ready for Summer Challenge' goals (needless to say, I have failed to achieve those goals. FAILED MISERABLY!).
AND, I am recommitting myself to the 'Motivated Mommies' and the FABULOUS ladies there, including the fantastic Erin over at Eating Away Ernie, because they deserve my commitment!
Yes. I will survive - and beyond simply surviving, I will THRIVE!
Yes. I will probably fall off the wagon again - BUT, I will get back on.
No. I will not EVER give up.
I. AM. RECOMMITTED.
**Hopefully I don't have to write another similar post in a week and a half, but if I do, so be it.**