I have been back on the wagon for five days.
FIVE GLORIOUS DAYS!
No, this week has not been perfect...but I am learning that perfection is overrated where this journey is concerned.
And you know what, instead of searching for perfection, I am now searching for success. I have come to believe that focusing on my success, rather than those inevitable failures that most certainly will occur along the way, is absolutely critical if I am going to make it to the finish line - to see the end of this journey.
This week has been focused on learning to use my new tracking program, making good food choices, and staying within my calorie target. So far, so good.
Although I am not proficient at navigating through SparkPeople just yet, I very much like the program. Not only can I see calories (which I believe is critical for my long term success), but I can also see the ranges I need to stay within for fat, sodium, carbs, etc. It is a pretty good program. As I learn to use the rest of the features, particularly the community features, I really think I will love it.
I have been making decent food choices this week. Yes, I have been doing my fair share of eating out, which is a problem long term because, really, there is no substitute for fresh, homemade food. BUT, I have made the best choices possible under these circumstances AND I have stayed well within my calorie targets. And you know what, I feel good about that!
I am starting to realize that "if I build it" the rest will come...as long as I give it time. I have to be patient with myself. And I'm trying to do just that.
Fitness has not been a focus for me this week...mainly because until today I was not really able to walk without immense pain (see post about hauling girth hundreds of feet in elevation up a mountain on Saturday). Going up and down stairs...fuggetaboutit! But today my mobility is returning AND I am starting to think about activity - going swimming, getting on the treadmill, and how soon I can get back on that mountain and conquer the 'Y'!. I to want to feel my body move and sweat and burn.
My mind is starting to once again focus on being healthy, on running and jumping and skipping and playing! On all those things that made me want to make this journey in the first place. Mentally, physically and spiritually a sense of calm is returning, and frankly I feel at peace.
FIVE GLORIOUS DAYS OF SUCCESS!!
What a difference five days makes!