In fact, this week has been VERY challenging. One of the most challenging weeks I have had so far. A week that has seen a lot of bad habits creeping back into my daily life.
WARNING - EXCUSES AHEAD!
I haven't been feeling well AND I'm hormonal. GREAT COMBO for a girl on a diet! On Sunday I just felt...BLAH! I had no energy and felt dizzy and light headed every time I stood up. I spent the entire day sitting around, watching TV and not much else. I am also hormonal (sorry male readers, this is just a fact of female life and it DEFINITELY affects diet and exercise). Hormonal = swelling, at least for me it does, and when my ankles are swollen I just want to lay down and prop them up. I also want to eat everything in sight. EVERYTHING.
So, I don't feel well AND I'm hormonal. GOOOOOOOD! Good for the program!
Besides feeling poorly AND being hormonal, work has been incredibly stressful this week. What do I do to deal with stress? One guess (hint: I didn't get to 430 lbs. exercising to relieve stress) I EAT! And boy am I battling that desire. I want to eat to drown the emotions and the stress. I want to eat to feel better. I want to eat because I am hormonal. I WANT TO EAT TO COPE! And fighting that desire to eat is kicking my butt!
The combination of feeling sick, hormonal, stressed AND fighting the desire to chow down like a hound has left me exhausted...so when I get home I have no motivation to do anything. I don't want to cook. I don't want to work out. I just want to lay on the couch or my bed and watch 'Modern Family'.
So, how has all of this manifested itself??
I've been snacky - yesterday I ate 23 points worth of SNACKS!
I haven't been tracking - I just spent the last 30 minutes going back and tracking for Monday and Tuesday.
I haven't been working out - I went swimming on Monday, but I haven't hit the treadmill since SATURDAY! AND the only reason I went on Monday was because my older sister, who has Multiple Sclerosis, decided she was ready to start a fitness program. I have been bugging her for MONTHS to get out and start doing some activity - so, to say no was NOT an option.
I ate out - I may have failed to mention here on the blog that I made a commitment to not eat out for the month of March. This is both for diet and financial reasons. Today, I snapped like a twig and ate out...and it made me feel guilty so I couldn't even enjoy it!
I'm overeating - I have eaten 24 points over my target for the week!
How, HOW does someone who just lost 7.6 lbs. after a 2 week plateau AND still has 247 lbs. to lose let this happen???
They are powerful, and they are hard to fight. It took a long time to develop them and they aren't going away overnight.
BUT, they won't get the best of me...because I am determined...and hell hath no fury like a sick, hormonal, stressed woman who is determined. HELL HATH NO FURY!