Thursday, February 2, 2012


Uncomfortable. That is how I feel. Every minute of every single day. I am uncomfortable...uncomfortable in my own skin, literally, because there is FAR too much of it. And under that layer of far too much skin is far too much fat - adding to the feeling of complete discomfort. I feel squished, literally squished, all the time. I'm tired of feeling uncomfortable.

I started a big long post today about how I got to this point, exploring my emotional eating and the ballooning of my weight to a whopping 430 lbs. But you know what - all that is beside the point now. I am here. I can't change the past. I can only change what comes next. And so that is what I am doing...and I will keep doing it until I get it right.

Yesterday I started Weight Watchers again...for the 9,000,000,001 time. I signed up and started tracking. I made it through the day yesterday, and even though I still felt uncomfortable & squished most of the day, I also felt good. I felt like I had accomplished something. I felt possibility in the air.

This is not a journey that will be easy...Obviously, this journey didn't start yesterday, I've been on it for a very long time. I've started it over more times than I care to count. I've taken 2 steps forward and 100 steps back on many, many occasions. Yesterday I took a step forward - and from here on out I am committed to taking it day by day. Nothing more, just day by day.

1 comment:

  1. I completely understand what you mean about being uncomfortable! I have about 115 lbs. to lose...well now 105! : ) I started my journey On January 8th and have lost 10 lbs. already! YOU CAN DO IT!!! WE CAN DO IT!!! If you ever need anyone to talk to please feel free to e-mail me!

    I also started a weight loss blog shortly after reading Katie's story at Runs For Cookies (LOVE HER). So I'll keep track of you and you can keep track of me. : ) Everyone needs encouragement...and that's why I started the blog...also for accountability! I wish nothing but the best for you and will be praying that you see BIG number drops in the near future! : )