I did it. I weighed in this morning. My stomach was churning, literally, as I went to get on the scale. I even woke my husband up, announced I was going to weigh in and told him to hold my hand and prepare to comfort me, if needed.
I lost weight. So, that is good.
But I didn't lose as much weight as I thought I would, and that really bummed me out.
I won't lie, I expected to step on that scale and see some kind of Biggest Loser weight loss - double digits!! I mean, I do have 265 FREAKING LBS TO LOSE and double digits in my first week just seemed, well, a given. It wasn't.
In the end I lost 3.2 lbs. A respectable number for sure, but below my expectations.
I felt sad this morning - but more than anything I feel worried that this new PointsPlus program from Weight Watchers doesn't work as well as the old program. My mother in law, a Leader for Weight Watchers, assures me this is not the case. I am skeptical. But, I am not ready to give up and remain focused on taking things day by day.
DAY BY DAY. I have to keep saying it to myself. DAY BY DAY.
2/08/2012 - 426.8 - the first stone of the mountain moved (again). Here's hoping that I don't pack mule it back to the mountain as I have so many other times in the past.